Just a feeling

YOU CAN DO NICE THINGS FOR PEOPLE ALL THE TIME AND THEY NEVER NOTICE. BUT ONCE YOU MAKE MISTAKE, IT'S NEVER FORGOTTEN

(TYPING words. sharing what you feel. COLD RAINY EVENING.. and so here it goes)

It's easy to Forgive but it's NEVER easy to forget.  It's when you try so hard to forget the bad things but you just can't. It's when you say things are already fixed and that you've already gave forgiveness but can't move on from it. It's when you can't help but going back and and and you don't know what to do.

Sometimes It feels like you are not being fair to the person who did you wrong. It's because every time things go wrong you keep hitting him back with what he did before. It's when you make big issues out of small things. Even explanations won't work. It's when explanations are worthless and meaningless because whatever you hear, still.. you would only believe with what you feel. and whether you like it or not your emotions would decide for you. Isn't that wrong?

You know what? it feels sad. it's like you can't achieve true happiness. You might be happy together but somewhere inside.. it's still there. the pain still stays. and every time you remember the "bad thing" .. it still hurts.. the pain is exactly the same just like before. and you just can't move forward. You can't help shedding a tear.

It's when you wish you can't remember things anymore. It's when you wish you never knew the story. It's when you wish things were the way they were before. BUT IT'S NOT THAT WAY. I guess it may have left permanent scars.

T.T all I'm praying for is to have a PEACE OF MIND

whatever it takes

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find


'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up


I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make 

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, we got a lot at stake 

And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

no I'm not giving up
I am tough, I am loved
we're alive, we are loved
God knows we're worth it and we're worth it

FLASHES of BITTERNESS

hello there!

I just want to check things.. what's up bitch? How are you doing? it's been a while. are you getting enough sleep this past few days? HOW'S you're LIFE? getting better? are you happy? Contented?

I HOPE NOT :)) ../..

how's LIFE? :)

what's with you and your ever loyal boyfriend? staying strong? you look happy together huh? DOES HE ALREADY KNOW what you've done last month? have you shared Stories about your vacation? your stay here? THE people you stay with? the people you hanged out most of the time. and the PEOPLE YOU SLEPT WITH while you're here? hahah! why don't you share it with him.. oh how I wish you get a punch in the face :) doing crappy things behind your boyfriend's back. how Great is that? are you really doing fine? :) just checking :) I'M JUST CONCERNED (sarcastically CONCERNED)

do you know what it feels like being betrayed? I BET NOT :)

I saw you once.. BUT I'LL never forget that so INNOCENT FACE forever :) that BITCH hiding inside an innocent sweet face. hahah. you're such a FAKE!

PS: WHAT GOES AROUND COMES BACK AROUND