Don't Look at Him, He's mine

Never mind the teeth marks.. just cuddling around. hihi

"Come take my hand.. I won't let you go. I'll be your friend, I will love you so deeply.. I will be the one to kiss you at night, I will love you until the end of time.. I will be your baby, Promise not to let you go. Love you like crazy.. Say you'll never let me go. Take you away from here, There's nothing between us but space and time.. I'll be your own little star.. Let me shine in your world, Be your own little universe.. Make me your girl"

As far as I know. or at least in my own PERSPECTIVE. HE'S MINE. Well, I'd like to believe that "HE" 's mine already. Pag-bigyan niyo na lang ako :) hihih. the weird thing is I STILL DON'T WANT TO BE ATTACHED to anyone.. but I know I love him. and I don't want to lose him. SERIOUSLY. SCARED PAWEN???? I know I'm so MAGULO and all.. pero, I really don't understand myself too. What's happening right now feels... feels.. Right but at the same time.. It feels so WRONG. and there goes the NEGATIVITY again :) If only PEOPLE AROUND WOULD STOP SHARING THEIR STORIES TO ME,, MAYBE EVERYTHING WOULD BE MUCH EASIER FOR ME :) ang hirap sakin.. masyado akong nagpapadala sa mga kwento.. BUT CAN YOU BLAME ME?? I'M JUST RATIONALIZING.. nurse nga diba? I have to rationalize every time.. KAYA WALANG LOVE LIFE E. ANG LAWAK NG UTAK!! NAKAKALOKA! but .. I'm hoping he won't get tired of me.

I'M TRYING my very best to make him feel special naman every single day. (it's just that some days.. hormones takes over and I act a bit weird.. so yeah. BIPOLAR NGA E?? hahaha.. ) .. I don't know if I'M DOING A GOOD JOB RIGHT HERE.. I tell him how much I love him as much as I can.. The only thing that's missing is the FORMALITY. now tell me? Is that really necessary? (and I know most of you will tell me that it is NECESSARY.. why the hell did I ask that anyway?? hahah) sabagay, mahirap nga naman ang walang FORMALITY.. kasi wala kang pinanghahawakan.. baka biglang.. ONE DAY,, I'LL WAKE UP AND HE'S ALREADY GONE NA PALA. oh well. BLAME ME! BLAME ME! and my freakin' PRIDE :)) *that is if..... if that happens*

but right now, WHAT I can promise and assure him is that.. I REALLY DO LOVE HIM :) I don't know if we're on the same track here..but it's okay. and no one else could change that even someone's trying, I bet he can't.. lalo na at this point (hi there bee! why are you back in my life? I thought we're already through? diba you left me na dati? argh! hiwalay na kasi kayo ni *insert name here*? kaloka ka! --- ok, he's a different story) ... yepyep. I REALLY LOVE HIM more than I could express it. and I can't deny HOW MUCH HE MAKES ME HAPPY EVERY SINGLE DAY. and I'm very thankful for that. seriously, EVERY SINGLE DAY!! I don't know how to explain how I feel right now.. but it's just.. just FULL OF HAPPINESS.

"You were always gonna be the one.. And for now, I'll still be singing this love song. For... somebody like you"

Oh and By the way.. what I said on my post.. two pages ago .. hihi (I love it. I really did)... I GUESS I'M REALLY NOT READY RIGHT NOW. So I have to take everything back. boo!! i know. i know. I'm so BIPOLAR.