Lazy Daisy

 

OUTFIT TODAY IS INSPIRED BY MY OUTFIT YESTERDAY :)) but today.. I wore shorts :)) same accessories.. enhanced curly hair :)) 

 hihih :)) I just hanged out with my friends at the mall.. sooo bored!! it's so nice bonding with girls who has the same interest as you are.. SHOES!!! SHOES!! SHOES!! AND LOTS OF SHOES!!! colorful SHOES!! you can relate with each other.. hihih..so nice!! :))

Happy Sunday dressing up

Here's what I wore earlier in attending mass and hanging out after

So! f.a.b.  wedge

"LIKE A BOSS" baller. its DEK's. hihih. found it in his room.
 it's mine now! hahah :)) and a CROSS connector ring

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this is my new baby :)) she's from a special someone.
 isn't she cute?

--LOW Quality photos. SORRY FOR THAT. t'was already dark when I took the shots.

I will Love you better now

I'm gonna pick up the pieces,
and build a lego house
if things go wrong we can knock it down

My three words have two meanings,
there's one thing on my mind
It's all for you

And it's dark in a cold December,
but I've got you to keep me warm
and if you're broken I will mend you and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
and out of all these things I've done
I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done
I think I love you better now, now

I'm gonna paint you by numbers
and color you in
if things go right we can frame it, and put you on a wall

And it's so hard to say it but I've been here before
and I will surrender up my heart
and swap it for yours

Don't hold me down
I think my braces are breaking
and it's more than I can take

and out of all these things I've done
I will love you better now

(ed sheeran- LEGO HOUSE)

Dear God,

Finally.. week of sleepless nights are already over, thank you for blessing me all through out. I haven't done my part hundred percent that's why I know I don't deserve too much, I procrastinated a lot but still you never failed me. But despite that, I know that you saw all my effort and hardships and you know what's best for me and what I deserve. I know you were beside me all the time.. I can feel you and I am so much thankful. You're the best! Do your will. Make me an instrument. Now, all I have to do is wait for 17days to see the fruit of my labor and I will never stop praying that all the sleepless nights and tears paid off. I am praying for peace of mind. I am sorry if some days, I doubted you. It wasn't my intention. I was just too pressured and wasn't thinking. I know you will never abandon me. My heart is filled with happiness that I have done it, of course with your help. thank you. thank you. thank you.

I'll let go of everything.. I'll let YOU TAKE OVER. :)) MORE YEARS TO GO!!

--wanderlust, VanessaJTL

Don't Look at Him, He's mine

Never mind the teeth marks.. just cuddling around. hihi

"Come take my hand.. I won't let you go. I'll be your friend, I will love you so deeply.. I will be the one to kiss you at night, I will love you until the end of time.. I will be your baby, Promise not to let you go. Love you like crazy.. Say you'll never let me go. Take you away from here, There's nothing between us but space and time.. I'll be your own little star.. Let me shine in your world, Be your own little universe.. Make me your girl"

As far as I know. or at least in my own PERSPECTIVE. HE'S MINE. Well, I'd like to believe that "HE" 's mine already. Pag-bigyan niyo na lang ako :) hihih. the weird thing is I STILL DON'T WANT TO BE ATTACHED to anyone.. but I know I love him. and I don't want to lose him. SERIOUSLY. SCARED PAWEN???? I know I'm so MAGULO and all.. pero, I really don't understand myself too. What's happening right now feels... feels.. Right but at the same time.. It feels so WRONG. and there goes the NEGATIVITY again :) If only PEOPLE AROUND WOULD STOP SHARING THEIR STORIES TO ME,, MAYBE EVERYTHING WOULD BE MUCH EASIER FOR ME :) ang hirap sakin.. masyado akong nagpapadala sa mga kwento.. BUT CAN YOU BLAME ME?? I'M JUST RATIONALIZING.. nurse nga diba? I have to rationalize every time.. KAYA WALANG LOVE LIFE E. ANG LAWAK NG UTAK!! NAKAKALOKA! but .. I'm hoping he won't get tired of me.

I'M TRYING my very best to make him feel special naman every single day. (it's just that some days.. hormones takes over and I act a bit weird.. so yeah. BIPOLAR NGA E?? hahaha.. ) .. I don't know if I'M DOING A GOOD JOB RIGHT HERE.. I tell him how much I love him as much as I can.. The only thing that's missing is the FORMALITY. now tell me? Is that really necessary? (and I know most of you will tell me that it is NECESSARY.. why the hell did I ask that anyway?? hahah) sabagay, mahirap nga naman ang walang FORMALITY.. kasi wala kang pinanghahawakan.. baka biglang.. ONE DAY,, I'LL WAKE UP AND HE'S ALREADY GONE NA PALA. oh well. BLAME ME! BLAME ME! and my freakin' PRIDE :)) *that is if..... if that happens*

but right now, WHAT I can promise and assure him is that.. I REALLY DO LOVE HIM :) I don't know if we're on the same track here..but it's okay. and no one else could change that even someone's trying, I bet he can't.. lalo na at this point (hi there bee! why are you back in my life? I thought we're already through? diba you left me na dati? argh! hiwalay na kasi kayo ni *insert name here*? kaloka ka! --- ok, he's a different story) ... yepyep. I REALLY LOVE HIM more than I could express it. and I can't deny HOW MUCH HE MAKES ME HAPPY EVERY SINGLE DAY. and I'm very thankful for that. seriously, EVERY SINGLE DAY!! I don't know how to explain how I feel right now.. but it's just.. just FULL OF HAPPINESS.

"You were always gonna be the one.. And for now, I'll still be singing this love song. For... somebody like you"

Oh and By the way.. what I said on my post.. two pages ago .. hihi (I love it. I really did)... I GUESS I'M REALLY NOT READY RIGHT NOW. So I have to take everything back. boo!! i know. i know. I'm so BIPOLAR.

6years and still counting

Ang sarap mabuhay lalo na kapag alam mong may kaibigan kang laging nandiyan.

kahit malayo kayo sa isa't isa. ok lang :))

kaya nga may unli eh. parang nanjan na ka na rin lang.

Magkaiba tayo. Oo. sobra. yun nga yung nagbibigay kulay diba? :)

Oo nga noh? Hindi ba nakapagtataka? Sa kabila ng mga pagkakaiba, paanong naging isa?

sa buhay palang.. magkaiba na ng pananaw.

magkaiba din ang mundong ginagalawan.

sabihin na nating mabait ako ng konti (wag ng kumontra).. kabaliktaran ka. (konti lang naman)

MASIPAG ka, alam ko yan :) ikaw na marunong sa mga gawain sa loob ng bahay..

ako? mas gusto kong tumunganga, 

hindi sa walang alam, sadyang tamad lang.

ikaw na marunong magluto,,ako hanggang kain lang :)

Madami akong tanong sa buhay. ikaw? hindi ko alam.

lahat napapansin ko. ikaw? hindi ko din alam. (hahah)

gusto kong alamin lahat. ikaw kuntento na isang tanong.

Gusto ko tahimik. mas gusto mo atang maingay.

hanggang dalawang minuto lang ang kaya ko sa pagiging seryoso. ikaw, kayang kaya mo.

kaya mong sabihin lahat ng harapan. ako hanggang dito na lang :)

Sa pasensya.. maikli ang akin.. at dahil nagagawa mo kong pakisamahan.. 

alam kong napakahaba nga ng pasensya mo. hanga ako sayo :)

MADAMI pang pagkakaiba, kung iisa-isahin ko pa.. baka umabot toh hanggang EDSA.

mapaglaro nga talaga ang mundo.

hindi ko akalaing mangyayaring lahat ng toh.

di ko nga akalaing tatagal ako sa tabi mo.

alam ko! NAPAKA-LOYAL KO :)

hindi. sadyang ganyan lang talaga ko sa mga taong mahal ko :)

oh. wag masyadong ma-flatter, MADAMI kaya KAYO.

hahahahahah.

I feel so blessed to have you as a friend. you're one of the BEST :)You're God's gift :) so, I must treasure you forever! not everyone has given this chance and this kind of blessing :)) and I am very much thankful for everything! :)

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BESTFRIEND. no words can express how much ILOVEYOU.

-- wanderlust, VJTL (3/14/12)

I loved it. I really Did.

okay. so, the chosen title has nothing to do with the contents of my blog post today. it's just that it's a  line that I can't get over (ang funny mo Erol!) !! I can't help but to type it already. AKO NA MABABAW. It just makes me laugh every time I remember it. I look stupid na nga minsan eh, I smile even I'm alone. hahaha. that was one memorable hell of a night. I'm still not in the mood to detail about that night.. so yeah. maybe soon.

GOING BACK TO THE POST.  
AND OH.. BEFORE YOU CONTINUE LET ME WARN YOU: THIS POST IS STUPID. I just had to.

let's first set the mood with this wonderful song. it's a favorite of yours truly :) (TADHANA-- up dharma down)

ROBIN: "Why?? why am I constantly looking for reasons not to be happy??"
THERAPIST: "Maybe because the idea of finally being happy TERRIFIES YOU"
---- How I met your mother tv series

it's true. EXACTLY. The idea of finally being happy terrifies me and I don't know why. this is the reason why I'm always running away from things that makes me happy or should I say.. running away from the PERSON that makes me happy. I know clearly, deep inside.. its hiding, wanting to burst.. but I keep on fighting it.. and like what Robin said,, I am constantly looking for reasons not to be happy just to fight it and to tell you.. I'M VERY GOOD AT IT. But tell me? is it right? and there it goes.. my super negative identity tells me its right and the other tells me its not right. and so this sucks, actually, I Do. not this! :))

I tried to consult an older friend yesterday (Hi kuya dar!) and like what he always tells me.. I AM SUCH A PESSIMIST. as far as I can remember ang sabi nya sakin.. "GUSTO MO NA E! BAKIT MO PA PINIPIGILAN.". I told him I'm scared of what could happen after.. what could possibly change.. I don't want to get hurt AGAIN. and he told me.. MANGYAYARI NAMAN TALAGA YUN E.. SUSUBUKAN MO LANG NAMAN. EH PANO PAG NAWALA NGAYON PA LANG? EH DI MAS NAGSISI KA? and to my surprise.. tears fell down my eyes (like what's happening right now. at this exact moment. I'm such a cry baby) that's new! why did I cry?? :)) I realized how much this is hurting me already, how much pain I'm causing myself. it's so sad. and at the same time,, the tears felt like t'was tears of joy.. I am so overwhelmed but I am so confused. really CONFUSED!

and that moment made me realize things.. I know I have to make up my mind already.. it's time.. this is too much, too painful to handle already. that's why I need to take my chances, take the risk. stop being a coward.. face what scares me. I think a year and 7months of NOT BEING VULNERABLE is enough already.. I tried so hard already.. I think it's time to be the opposite, be VULNERABLE.. time to make myself happy without "buts" and "ifs", without the thoughts of "what could possibly happen", without the thought of being hurt. THE HELL WITH WHAT COULD BE THE ENDING. just try again.

ps: THIS IS STILL NOT EASY FOR ME!! FOR REAL.. BUT I'LL TRY my very best!!

to end this drama.. lemme leave you a this..  from Lady A.'s (there's always a song that would best describe your feelings.. agree?)

"Scared of love but scared of life alone. Seems I've been playing on the safe side. Building walls around my heart to save me, But it's time for me to let it go.. I'm ready to feel now, No longer am I afraid of the fall down. It must be time to move on now.. Without the fear of how it might end. I guess I'm ready to love again"

ei! wtvr! it's still me :)) nothing will change. hihi I'll link this to this post ( adele21 )

-wanderlust, VJTL

Facts about Guys

Read this on FB :))  original post is: 99 facts about guys. I just had to share some that I like/agree with :)) hihih. have fun reading!!

 

2. Guys love flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!!!!!! (oh really?? --VanessaJTL)
14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much. (yah! that's true! --VanessaJTL) 
17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly. (I know right? --VanessaJTL)
25. Guys love their moms. (Cute!! --VanessaJTL)
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can. (soooo true!! --VanessaJTL)
33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long. (oh no???!! --VanessaJTL)
34. No guy is bad when he is courting.
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot. (I truly agree!! --VanessaJTL)
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice. (ahhh ok :)) know I know --VanessaJTL)
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!! (I'd like that :)) hahaha --VanessaJTL)
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”
59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--do you guys agree with this?

#daphne :)           

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