Monday, 30 April 2012

Purity



It's been a long time since I last posted. It's just that I was really not inspired enough to blog about things that's happening. or should I say.. it wasn't worth blogging at all?? nah.. well anyway.. the thing is I am back .. ALIVE AND BLOGGING :))

 Lots of crazy things happen this MONTH.  but hey! APRIL would always be my favorite month of the year! So okay. what's with the title?

de·ceived / de·ceiv·ing : to cause to accept as true or valid what is false or invalid 

"LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING"

 well, today.. I realized that this line here is true. looks can really be deceiving.. 
and I PROVED IT MYSELF.

sometimes.. well I mean.. most of the time.. we misinterpret things other people do/act. pero kung mayron man akong natutunan ngayon.. yun e yung.. HINDI TALAGA NATIN LUBOS NA MAIINTINDIHAN ANG ISANG TAO HANGGA'T HINDI MO NALALAMAN ANG TUNAY NYANG KWENTO. and what about the looks?? hindi nababase sa ichura ng tao ang tunay nyang pagkatao.. let's say.. We think someone is innocent because of the way she looks and the way she acts around you.. pero ganun ba talaga siya ? you can never tell.

well, to be honest.. I heard different stories already that shocked me ! kung sino pa yung mga taong akala mo e walang alam.. yung pa pala ang mga nakakalamang.. if you know what I mean. ako, I must say.. (and like what my college friends always say) PURO SALITA  lang ako pero sa totoo lang.. HANGGANG SALITA LANG TALAGA KO. lezz say.. walang takot kung ano man sasabihin namin.. pero in real life.. hanggang salita lang naman talaga kami.. we all have no experience. as in zero.. kaya I was really shocked to know stories from different people.. I never imagined na nagagawa nila ang mga bagay bagay na yun. NOT THEM. OF ALL PEOPLE. I NEVER IMAGINED IT WOULD BE THEM. and once again.. I'll say.. LOOKS CAN REALLY BE DECEIVING.

and to tell you,. hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ko sa mga nalalaman ko or what. let's say.. HALO.. 

Guilt was lessen kasi I learned it was normal.. atleast nalaman kong normal ako *but people .. don't misinterpret this.. hindi dahil sinabi kong may guilt ako.. don't jump in to a conclusion na.. may ginawa ako.. it's not like that.. i really can't explain it clearly.. pero for the record.. wala talaga..*

pero nung nalaman ko yung mga yun.. sabihin na natin na sa iba.. hindi nagbago tingin ko sakanila.. nandun parin yung respeto ko sakanila.. pero merong ilan na..nagbago tingin ko.. masama ba yun? hindi ko din alam.. nalulungkot ako para sakanila.. at the same time., naiinis ako. BUT ATLEAST .. dahil dun.. mas lalo ko silang naiintindihan.. kung ano man sila ngayon.. alam ko ang pinaguugatan.

at dahil dito.. NAGIBA NA ANG TINGIN KO SA MUNDO

Wednesday, 11 April 2012

19 and stronger

"All the days ordained for me
were written in Your book
before one of them came to be."
(Psalm 139:16b, NIV)

5 minutes ago.. I was staring at the clock and wishing that it would stop right there at that very moment. I was so scared. really scared. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just scared of getting older. Scared of .....

1st emotional birthday ever. The weird thing is.. when the clock strikes 12.. I just felt sad and then I cried. and cried harder when I received calls,text messages,tweets and timeline posts from my dearest friends. I couldn't help but cry. I'm in a roller coaster of emotions here.

but before anything else.. THANK YOU LORD for giving me another year. I feel so blessed and I'm very grateful for everything. thank you for the blessings! thank you for the wonderful FAMILY and friends. thank you for the 19 years and hoping for more years to come. thank you! thank you! words cannot express how thankful I am for everything.. for my LIFE. and I'm sorry If i ever doubted you.

HONESTLY, Right now I'm going through a lot of things and I can't afford to be completely happy, I AM SORRY. I know I should be.. but I just can't. It's not that I'm not happy at all.. I am.. knowing that I am surrounded by the people who loves me.. I am happy. I know you guys can't understand me right now.  its just that Things are just becoming more and more complicated and I can feel the pressure already. but I know GOD has plans for me. He gave me these trials for me to surpass.. for me to learn.. because he knows I CAN DO THIS. and again I THANK HIM. I know everything happens for a reason. Dear Lord.. I KNOW YOU WOULD NEVER ABANDON ME.  LET YOUR WILL BE DONE.

I JUST NEED MORE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON. I know I can. :'( 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISSA :)) iloveyousomuch.

THANK YOU DEAR FRIENDS :') YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH YOUR GREETING MEANS TO ME :') REALLY. I THANK YOU :')

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
 

----wanderlust, VanessaJTL