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"Don't hide your feelings from someone. If u love them then show it, want to be with them take a chance, because life is to short to live w/ regrets."

  I let it fall, my heart, And as it fell you rose to claim it, It was dark and I was over.. Until you kissed my lips and you saved me.

My hands, they're strong But my knees were far too weak To stand in your arms Without falling to your feet.

But there's a side to you That I never knew, never knew. All the things you'd say, They were never true, never true, And the games you play You would always win, always win.



Well, it burned while I cried 'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name! When I lay with you , I could stay there Close my eyes

Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better.

GAMOPHOBIA

the fear of marriage, Relationship, and commitment.

"what happens when love beats to a different drum? for him.. it's LOVE.. for her, it's FUN.. HOW do you make your love OFFICIAL when OFFICIALLY, your relationship isn't even OFFICIAL?" -unofficially yours trailer

** "pwede bang maging tayo na lang?" 

*"alam mo? lahat ng ganyan! ang ending lang.. HIWALAYAN din, tska di na yan uso!"

I think I'm afraid of COMMITMENT. ang ganda ko diba? nag-iinarte? di naman!! I'm just scared to get hurt again. I feel no has the right to hurt my feelings and I don't deserve to get hurt specially when it's all because of a guy. don't want to get DUMPED specifically!! NO ONE DOES! UTANG NA LOOB!! kaya ba nakokontento nlang ako ng ganito lang? yun ba yun? hindi ko alam e. ang hirap sakin,.. hindi na ko naniniwala sa labels! sa status! "OO" is just for formality sake. eh sa ayaw kong maging FORMAL? pwede bang wag nlang muna?

 ** "you're not choosy, you're also not a tease."

*"so ano ako?"

** "DUWAG!"

NOW YOU KNOW kung ano ako!! hahah :))

HANDA KA NA BANG MASAKTAN? -my cactus heart trailer
 -----Pak! hindi pa!!! wag muna please! konti pa :( pag naniwala na ko ulit. konti na lang talaga. please be patient.

BLUES

i wish I was BRAVE :) but AM not. I'm so scared of accepting the fact that I've already fallen!! I Remember kuya dar once told me that I'm such a coward.. and that I'm so afraid of taking chances. sbe niya sakin,, bakit ko daw ba pinipilit maging negative all the time. yung alam ko namang magpapasaya sakin, pero pilit kong pinipigilan.. why not take chances daw.. EXPLORE. kea lang I KEEP HOLDING BACK!  WHY NOT ENJOY THE PRESENT nalang and stop thinking about the FUTURE! that would make things less complicated. yun nman tlaga yung problema sakin e. I keep on making things complicated. hindi nman dapat. kaya ayan tuloy. I CAN'T HAVE COMPLETE HAPPINESS!! :)) arte ko kasi. 

BUT CAN YOU BLAME ME? I HAVE REASONS NAMAN AHH. (may pinanghuhugutan din). and I believe this is where all this started. I'm so afraid of being hurt again. such a cliche, I remember when I was younger.. I told myself that I would never cry over a guy, I was thinking .. hindi ako ganun ka-babaw para iyakan ang isang lalaki. bakit? sino ba siya? pag may nakikita pa nga kong mga babaeng umiiyak dahil nkipag-hiwalay, nasasabi ko pang OA sila e.. luckily, I managed it twice.. hnd ko iniyakan.. kasi ako ang nangiwan.. pero after the second..ayun, bumaliktad na ang mundo..MASAKIT PALA PAG IKAW NA YUNG INIIWAN. nung nasa sitwasyon na ko na yun (that was way back 2008) hindi mo pala mapipigilan talaga. sadly, almost a year.. no! 1 and a half year before I moved on and literally I was crying every night whenever I think about him and what he did to me (a 2 timing JERK!) strangely, wla nman kaming masyadong memories pero I was really hurt. grabe yun! awang-awa na ko sa sarili ko, I even did VERY VERY STUPID THINGS na ngayon eh I really regretted. sorry. I wasn't thinking that time. BATA pa nga e. SO FRAGILE :)) and then after nun.. I promised myself.. AGAIN that I would never cry over a guy and for the 2nd time, ayun ang lola mo. umiiyak nnman.. pero before it happened.. I was expecting it already, so before I asked the guy, I was talking to myself na. I was preparing.. alam ko ng mangyayari yun, I WAS CONFIDENT ENOUGH THAT I WAS REALLY READY,,kaya ang alam ko, hindi ako iiyak.. ano ang ending?? nung nabasa ko.. IYAK nnman teh,  the weird thing is.. 1year and 2months kami together (compared sa una, na 4months lang nman yun) but but healing process was faster. 

PS: ANG HIRAP SAKIN! NIREREGRET KONG INIYAKAN KO YUNG MGA YUN! KALOKA SILA!! (nakakatawa nlang talaga ngayon pag naaalala ko sila.. I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM SOBRA!! ang saya ko pa nga na wala na sila sa LIFE ko eh)

SO AYUN! MAYBE I'M NOW SO SCARED TO FEEL THOSE things again, I DON'T WANT TO BE DUMPED AGAIN!! that's not easy to handle kaya!! So scared that I don't want to fall inlove again.

feeling ko kasi natatapakan ako ng bonggang bongga pag ako yung iniiwan e.

all this PRIDE is eating me up.

Childhood Happiness

l-o-v-e (version by MICHAEL BUBLE)

ugh! I can't find a decent video of this song on youtube.. lahat not available sa Philippines.. DAMOT!!! FRUSTRATING LANG!! 

well anyway.. It's a soundtrack of my favorite movie since childhood, THE PARENT TRAP starring Lindsay Lohan.

The Parent Trap is a 1998 remake of the 1961 family film of the same name. It was directed and co-written by Nancy Meyers, and produced and co-written by Charles Shyer. It stars Dennis Quaid and Natasha Richardson as a couple who divorce soon after marrying, and Lindsay Lohan in a dual role as their twin daughters, who are accidentally reunited after being separated at birth. (WIKIPEDIA) 

You see? I'm such a huge fan of Lindsay Lohan ever since because of this awesome movie :)  I was 5 years old that time, and ever since.. I never stopped watching it *A bit exaggerating here*. hahah :)) My mom bought me a CD that time (CD pa yung uso..yung dalwang disk pa nga e. wala pang DVD nun, di pauso yun) I even remember some of the their lines kasi sobrang paulit-ulit ko talaga siyang pinapanuod at hindi siya nakakasawa. Memorize ko na din yung pagkakasunod sunod ng mga scenes. hihih. I JUST LOVE THE MOVIE!! ANNIE AND HALLIE (both roles played by Lindsay Lohan) are soo adorable :)) wala lang. naalala ko lang.

OH CHILDHOOD DAYS :))

So this is the cute ANNIE/HALLIE today  (Lindsay Lohan) I STILL LOVE HER :))