INFIDELITY

In many intimate relationships, there is usually an express or implied expectation of exclusivity, especially in sexual matters. Infidelity (colloquially known as cheating) most commonly refers to a breach of the expectation of sexual exclusivity. Infidelity can occur in relation to physical intimacy and/or emotional intimacy. The impact of infidelity is said to be not only about sex outside the relationship, but also about trust, betrayal, lying and disloyalty. --wiki.org

Do you know what really hurts? It's standing the life where you are the one who's suffering from the act the other commited.. and expect that you'll suffer from today and who knows until when..  it's when you close your eyes and you see things you don't want to see, see things that you never thought would happen.. and worse.. YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG.. and yet.. YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR IT. pay for it through sleepless nights and nightmares that you don't want to close your eyes anymore.. pay for it through endless crying every time you try to close your eyes.. though you don't want to.. you know he doesn't deserve the tears.. not even a single tear and yet.. they still fall. why? IT'S BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN SHATTERED TO PIECES. damn so unfair. while they enjoy IMMORALITY.. you're the one whose hurt, haunted by the thought.

I HAVE DONE NO WRONG. I WAS FINE BEFORE . I WAS LIVING IN PEACE. WHY DO I HAVE TO PAY FOR IT??  WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER?

WHERE THE HELL DID I GO WRONG? after all the kindness, the thoughtfulness, the good things I've done.. what do I get? NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. oh wait. I do not expect anything at all.. but do I deserve this? NO! I DO NOT DESERVE THIS! I should have listened before.. BUT I DIDN'T. I should have walked away before.. BUT I DIDN'T. WHY? IT'S BECAUSE.. I have always been convincing myself to stay.. and I have always been trying to believe in you. AND OUT OF STUPIDITY.. I DID!! and what do I get? BETRAYAL. don't you have any shame??


I know this is the start of my Endless nightmares.. and I know I have to live with it day by day.. until it hurts no more.. until I could no longer feel it anymore.. until I forget everything.. until I get used to it..

"I took the chances  Defended, battled and fought .. Cuz I really thought you loved me.

I don't know where to start or where to stop ..No, but I know I am done , I've had enough 

So fall out of my hands Out of my heart  And when you hit the ground..

you'll be sorry i'm not around.. I will watch you While you fall out of your mind Out of your fantasy ..When you hit the wall .. Think of me  ..I'll be on the top just watching you fall 

I kept your feet on the ground My head in the rounds I had you .. You told me you were so greatful 

I was with you .. And I was so faithful. Stood by in all that you said  And all that you did,, I Loved you .. I don't know how to act or what to say..  But I know I am good I'll be okay" 

you do not deserve my kindness..you don't deserve forgiveness. you do not deserve empathy. you do not deserve anything from me at all. You are worthless in my eyes. you don't even deserve to be a part of a memory.. I do not wish you the best in life. I HATE YOU.. I HATE YOU AS A PERSON. I DISGUST YOU. YOU'RE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I MADE.

strong words huh? but I'll never regret saying it. for your..

IMMORALITY; licentiousness; profligacy; PROMISCUITY 

---I HOPE YOU'LL BURN IN HELL!!!!